bored.
it's quarter of 2009, and m still stuck with my job.

financial matters.
saving up for i dunno what, and m officially broke. i definitely miss shopping.

sick.
been a week and m still not recovering. pills are liars. i demand a refund from the clinic.

wondering what's next...
posted by B Junior @ 9:37:00 AM 
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life, love & death.

I've soon realized that age is catching up with us. last week, ayie's dad passed away. & today, hairy informed us that his dad is at stage 4. seeing them going through the grieve is so painful. i don't know if i can be as strong as them if it's happening to me. yes, it's part & parcel of life, but i don't think i will ever be ready for this.

i love you ayah & ibu. i don't even know why I'm crying so badly while composing this entry. shucks. I'm such a crybaby.
posted by B Junior @ 3:17:00 AM 
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i was that fugging close to my dreams, and BAM! in split seconds, m taken back to reality. gathering my thoughts, to execute plan B. the simple plan.

this is exhausting. dreams do come true, don't they? i hate questioning myself over and over again, sounding like a broken record....

compromise : a: settlement of differences by arbitration or by consent reached by mutual concessions b: something intermediate between or blending qualities of two different things

so do we have the right definition or understanding of the above noun here?
posted by B Junior @ 12:10:00 PM 
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this addiction for cinta fitri has got to stop!! not only it's robbing me of my social life, it's also depriving me from my needful sleep. everyday after work, i would immediately check out you tube, if there's any updated episode. crazy!

you know what else got to stop? my habit for impulsive purchases. apparently, im allergic to 4 letters : S-A-L-E. im so blinded by it that even a small discount would make me believe that it's a good bargain. wth!

where goes my 2009 resolution?? another fail attempt, yet again. year after year, i kept convincing myself that i can do it. and for the fact that i anxiously collated all the positive changes i want to achieve for this year.. oh well, i'll just wait for 2010 then! better luck next year i supposed. :)
posted by B Junior @ 9:17:00 AM 
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