Hey! It's the eve of new year! But its sooo sad dat i dun haf plans for this last wonderful day of the year. Nvm about dat.. allow me to summarised my highlights and dimlights for 2003.
Well basically nuthing much happen to me this year.. While waiting for my results, i was bz working and came a point of time where i neglect most of my friend. I didn't realised it, not during the bz moment.. until i quit my job and had a long break during June. I felt regretted how i wasted my secondary life just like that. I regret the stupid path i chose on my last year in Fajar. However, i manage to cope. I manage to survive. What do i mean? Well i divert my attention totally to one person that moment of time,
FIRDAUS. It's true he was my first real love. He was whom i wanted to be with for the rest of my life. But things changed. He proved me wrong. Well maybe because both of us was busy with our own life during the 'O' Levels. We drifted apart. I didn't feel it till the beginning of 2003. I felt he left me all alone in this world. It was so empty. Where's my friends? Where's my family? Oh no! I felt so ashamed of myself. I pushed them aside when i was happy and only find them when i'm down. What am i becoming to? So.. i have to thank fir for what i am now. He made me realise, it was friends that i need, not him. It was friends who made me cope in school, not him. Who am i referring it to? My Netball Teacher, My Netball Mates, My Close friends, My Classmates, My Peers. Thank you. Thank you for being there for me.
My Netball Teacher - Ms Neo : She was there for me since the day i joined netball, since the day i lost my bestest friend ever, liyana. She made me carry on my life. She make things smooth for me in Fajar.. She made me study. She watch me grow. She was my mother, my friend, my teacher.
My Netball Mate- Renny: Thank you Renny for being there for me when im really down in the dumps. For giving me hope. For being with me thru thick n thin in netball. I've seen u grow. From the attitude ren in netball to the responsible ren. I didn't expect to realise that it's you who are the most responsible and realible in netball. But u made me did. You understood me without communication. You've seen me cry, you've seen me smile. We shared almost the same experience in relationship and i know u will understand what i mean. Thank you ren, thank you for listening to my woes. And to those i didn't mention, thank you to u too. You guys played a big role in my life. This year was the most experiencing year for me. I changed my points of view. I changed from being a narrow minded and open up my views to life. I have to agree, this year is the most relaxing year of my life. It was less problematic. It was more enjoyable.
From July, i spent my days in poly. Being in that school taught me how to be independant. I began to find new friends. And this time round, i made them feel special. I didn't had trouble doing it anymore cause all of it came naturally. I learnt it from my years in fajar. How special friends are. What are true friends are. My poly mates are down to earth. They made me feel welcomed. They made my life in poly smooth. And through that journey, i fell in love. In love with someone i didn't expect to be with. We were close friends, and in fact we known each other way before poly. I first knew him through my friends in tanglin, specifically, my ex. We chatted before but was not that close. He wasn't active on net. We didn't expect that we would meet one day or maybe be together, a job well done by fate there.
MOHD ISKANDARIAN. He is someone whom i respect most. He showered me with everything i need. The love, the care, the concern. He proved to me that real love does exist. He healed the pain from my previous love. He gave me hope to start a-new. He was the prince of my heart. A close friend become one. That's what we are. I'm never a sunshine if it's not for him, who kept me smiling and kept me shining. He reminds me of my childhood. The way he talks, the way he smiles, the way he laughs. He's so young at heart. He'd dried my tears and made me alive. He's everything to me now. Thank you dear for making me part of your life now. Thank you from saving me from drowning in the pool of hurt.
People say, thank the people who hurt u before, cause it's them who gave you the chance to be with who you are with now. And i think it's true. If i hadn't been so hurt, i wouldn't gaf yan a chance to comfort me, then, i wouldn't open my eyes to new love. I'll just slip away the rare opportunities. So thank you for hurting me.
And for those party-freaks, PARTY ON! For dream wad u wanna dream, Go where u wanna go, Be where u wanna be cause u'll onli haf one life and one chance to do all the things you wanna do.
posted by B Junior @ 2:55:00 AM
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Ahh im on a biggest dilemma of my life! My parents juz came back from KL and mummy bought for me and kak melati LV small bag. And i dunno which one to choose... She said choose one of the two since the other one is for kak melati.. Both are soooo nice.. one looks cute the other looks elegant... so which one? HELP ME PLS!! And yea she bought mostly foooood.. hoping she bought shirts or pants for me but she diden *sobs* but nemind.. the LV bag was enuff for me. She got one for herself too and i think dat bag of hers looks neat! Ok now im off.. back to choosing which is better looking! *poof*
posted by B Junior @ 7:00:00 PM
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Wokey i've listed down the important things i need to buy and do before skewl starts... hope daddy wud spare me sum cash hehe-
1. Big bagpack for my laptop
2. Shirts.. My stock are running low..
3. Shoes
4. Get my pants altered
5. Pay my bills
6. Straightened up my room
7. Get a Job maybe?
posted by B Junior @ 5:04:00 PM
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It's was perfect! Went to Sentosa musical fountain as planned! Weee! It's was GREAT! AWESOME! SPLENDID! Enjoyed the show... It was so romantic! hehe.. Well thought of dipping myself at Siloso beach but was afraid it wud rain.. So skipped dat plan.. Went haf lunch first at JP den went to Annex to survey for few stuffs.. Bags.. Clothes... Shoess... Still prefer the converse at beach road.. And the clothes at bugis.. and maybe the bags too.... So many things to get but so lil' cash left *sigh* From there, took a straight bus to Harbourfront.. Splendid time.. took one round trip on the monorail to kill the time.. But on the way home, abit #@!%#$^.. was in a damn crowded bus and this one BIG group of inconsiderate family.. rush get seat oredy nemind, wan go down oso wan to rush... was like sooo urghs! i was pushed aside so they can drop first.. like cmon'.. u oredy got the comfort by sitting, let us the one who's standing alight first lah... sheesh! but nvm' had a great day! Wish to watch dat fountain again :D
posted by B Junior @ 12:34:00 AM
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I can't believe im wide awake this early in da morning.. I'm usualee snoring away till late early afternoon ard 1 or 2 pm.. I cun wait for layter... Gonna rock sentosa.. Darn n im so freakin bored coz most of my friends are not online now... so... wat did i do? I watched FREAKY FRIDAY. And it was awesome! I love the Anna she's fuckin gorgeous.... and most of all... she ROCKS! hehe Love the songs too, gonna get their soundtrack.... soon.... erm but not too soon coz im totally broke *sobs* Holidays with no job.. i might declare myself bankrupt sumday... hahaha nwae... im stuck with their OST - So happy together.. It's like sooo sooo nice...... been listening to dat song umpteen time.... ok here goes the lyrics...
P/S: For those who hasn't watch FREAKY FRIDAY watch it fast! Owh- Oh maybe it's me who's outdated... heheh probably u guys had watched it way before i do....
SO HAPPY TOGETHER - TURTLES
Imagine me and you, I do
I think about you day and night
It's only right
To think about the girl you love
And hold her tight
So happy together
If I should call you up
Invest a dime
And you say you belong to me
And ease my mind
Imagine how the world could be
So very fine
So happy together
{Refrain}
I can't see me loving nobody but you
For all my life
When you're with me
Baby the skies will be blue
For all my life
Me and you
And you and me
No matter how they tossed the dice
It had to be
The only one for me is you
And you for me
So happy together
{Refrain}
Me and you
And you and me
No matter how they tossed the dice
It had to be
The only one for me is you
And you for me
So happy together
So happy together
How is the weather
So happy together
We're happy together
So happy together
posted by B Junior @ 10:52:00 AM
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Ok so this is kinda cool after all hehe.. so excited... Hmmm i'm kinda stuck at home with nuthing to do... My parents are away on a honeymoon to KL hehehe geesh! Wish i can follow but nahh..... n here i am! With my sis n grandma... Im like on my bed the whole of today coz i got no where to go n practically no cash with me.... nemind abt dat... im gonna be off to sentosaaaa tomoro!! heheh can't wait fer dat.... gonna watch the musical fountain as planned... bet it gonna be great! Hmmmm now, let me summarised sum of my great days dat haf passed me..... i was lazy to update it at my old diary... so here it goes...
1. Grand Date With Dear At Lawrey's ------
It was superb! Feel so rich eating at an expensive restaurant... Imagine my fish n chip coz ermmm 30 bucks!?
2. Watch BROTHER BEAR! Woweee.... hehe yet to watch LOTR-
3. The great bash at town on the eve of christmas
4. Romantic Dates
5. And More Dates! hehehee
posted by B Junior @ 10:30:00 PM
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Yey! At last i got this stuff done.... It's been pretty tiring editing the backgrounds and all.... Hehe actualee juz trying this stuff out coz most of my friends are using diz... But i still think Free Open Diary is much more simpler... Bahhh!! Nemind.. See how it goes.... guez imma stick to this blogspot... or so...... weeeeee
posted by B Junior @ 5:19:00 PM
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