ironic isn't it when someone feels that they know you damn well but in actual fact they don't? only knowing me for 4 years and you think so?

think again.
people change, so do i.

you don't expect me to be the same throughout the 4 years, i grow, i fall, i picked myself up and learn from experience if necessary. you cared so much for what people will think of me, but did you actually cared for what i really feel? or did you merely judge me for what you see? have you even consider asking me what is really going on? don't say anything, coz you'll be defending yourself. that's what you always do.

look,
this is my life, and it's not like stories you read in books. it's REAL. so there bound to be hiccups along the way, but what matter most is to learn. yes, you may think im rude not to listen. let me tell you something, i acknowledge your concern about watsnot, but i have to learn it myself.

i can't say that i've really grown up yet, coz there's lots more to learn. but what i can say is i am learning. look at how much ive accomplished? i never knew i could go this far, and he didn't think i can make it either. but i did, and i know i can go futher.

if you think i've changed tremendously and it affects you so much, then im terribly sorry, coz this is me. and if i have hurt him in anyway, why don't he just say it to me? why must it be you saying it on his behalf?

oh wait, i know the answer. because you care for him, and you think i don't? hah.
absurd.

have you ever thought back of how many people you've hurt with the things you say? you have to understand, to err is just human. life is never perfect. before you approach someone or even have the intention to be sarcastic about situation, think of how they would feel at the end of the day. afterall, i know you're doing it out of goodwill, but arguments can be prevented with your choice of words.

im tired, i don't think i should even explain myself. but i just don't get it. it's always about you & him. what about me? what about how i really feel about things currently?
posted by B Junior @ 1:18:00 AM