Hey! It's the eve of new year! But its sooo sad dat i dun haf plans for this last wonderful day of the year. Nvm about dat.. allow me to summarised my highlights and dimlights for 2003.

Well basically nuthing much happen to me this year.. While waiting for my results, i was bz working and came a point of time where i neglect most of my friend. I didn't realised it, not during the bz moment.. until i quit my job and had a long break during June. I felt regretted how i wasted my secondary life just like that. I regret the stupid path i chose on my last year in Fajar. However, i manage to cope. I manage to survive. What do i mean? Well i divert my attention totally to one person that moment of time, FIRDAUS. It's true he was my first real love. He was whom i wanted to be with for the rest of my life. But things changed. He proved me wrong. Well maybe because both of us was busy with our own life during the 'O' Levels. We drifted apart. I didn't feel it till the beginning of 2003. I felt he left me all alone in this world. It was so empty. Where's my friends? Where's my family? Oh no! I felt so ashamed of myself. I pushed them aside when i was happy and only find them when i'm down. What am i becoming to? So.. i have to thank fir for what i am now. He made me realise, it was friends that i need, not him. It was friends who made me cope in school, not him. Who am i referring it to? My Netball Teacher, My Netball Mates, My Close friends, My Classmates, My Peers. Thank you. Thank you for being there for me. My Netball Teacher - Ms Neo : She was there for me since the day i joined netball, since the day i lost my bestest friend ever, liyana. She made me carry on my life. She make things smooth for me in Fajar.. She made me study. She watch me grow. She was my mother, my friend, my teacher. My Netball Mate- Renny: Thank you Renny for being there for me when im really down in the dumps. For giving me hope. For being with me thru thick n thin in netball. I've seen u grow. From the attitude ren in netball to the responsible ren. I didn't expect to realise that it's you who are the most responsible and realible in netball. But u made me did. You understood me without communication. You've seen me cry, you've seen me smile. We shared almost the same experience in relationship and i know u will understand what i mean. Thank you ren, thank you for listening to my woes. And to those i didn't mention, thank you to u too. You guys played a big role in my life. This year was the most experiencing year for me. I changed my points of view. I changed from being a narrow minded and open up my views to life. I have to agree, this year is the most relaxing year of my life. It was less problematic. It was more enjoyable.

From July, i spent my days in poly. Being in that school taught me how to be independant. I began to find new friends. And this time round, i made them feel special. I didn't had trouble doing it anymore cause all of it came naturally. I learnt it from my years in fajar. How special friends are. What are true friends are. My poly mates are down to earth. They made me feel welcomed. They made my life in poly smooth. And through that journey, i fell in love. In love with someone i didn't expect to be with. We were close friends, and in fact we known each other way before poly. I first knew him through my friends in tanglin, specifically, my ex. We chatted before but was not that close. He wasn't active on net. We didn't expect that we would meet one day or maybe be together, a job well done by fate there. MOHD ISKANDARIAN. He is someone whom i respect most. He showered me with everything i need. The love, the care, the concern. He proved to me that real love does exist. He healed the pain from my previous love. He gave me hope to start a-new. He was the prince of my heart. A close friend become one. That's what we are. I'm never a sunshine if it's not for him, who kept me smiling and kept me shining. He reminds me of my childhood. The way he talks, the way he smiles, the way he laughs. He's so young at heart. He'd dried my tears and made me alive. He's everything to me now. Thank you dear for making me part of your life now. Thank you from saving me from drowning in the pool of hurt.

People say, thank the people who hurt u before, cause it's them who gave you the chance to be with who you are with now. And i think it's true. If i hadn't been so hurt, i wouldn't gaf yan a chance to comfort me, then, i wouldn't open my eyes to new love. I'll just slip away the rare opportunities. So thank you for hurting me.

And for those party-freaks, PARTY ON! For dream wad u wanna dream, Go where u wanna go, Be where u wanna be cause u'll onli haf one life and one chance to do all the things you wanna do.


posted by B Junior @ 2:55:00 AM